Sunday, October 30, 2005
about: my life
i didnt managed to get much work done this weekend... sadly so! i'm a workaholic... wahaha...
i shant mention much abt fri evening... kind of angry, yet more of disappointed...
welcomed steve! and had a great supper... alright, enough to help end my fri in a better mood...
sat, slept quite a lot... more than usual... just feeling so tired...
sun... highlight was to new creation church with amber and jy... then shopping with amber at ps... a pity jy couldnt join us for shopping... our bag carryer not ard... wahaha...
feeling encouraged... at e same time, also not sure wat to do next... well, guess its a que tat i shld just take one step at a time... leave it according to God's plans and timings... easy to say, but hard to do... requires lots of discipline! and Faith... =)
Friday, October 28, 2005
about: my life
while waiting for laggy robbie to send me his SE essay file... i shall blog...
robbie laptop arh... takes forever to set... at least not as long to shut down, but still very long... now send email also take so long... i wonder is it e owner or e laptop... hmmm haha...
this morning,
S@S meeting at 8am... and i woke up at 8.15am... wow! and i didnt exactly jump up of my bed despite tat... a thot crossed my mind... can i not go... wahaha... ok so meeting... i learnt a lot from there... some stuff managed to applied for e later part of e day... haha...
day went on as usual...
went to try out my fencing glove size... lunch time met leile, he asked me if i going later... i'm like no! i didnt order... then a while later, jen smsed me to ask what time i going to try my glove size... good thing she told me i ordered man... haha... how blur can i get... wahaha...
then had dinner beside e pool... so romantic... oh crap...
before heading back to room, had an 'official' discussion with jen regarding her 'all girls baraaz', a project under NES... managed to apply wat i learnt in e morning here... so happy... i feel so smart...
basically, many things i learnt from
S@S and will be from AGB and more activities and roles i will get myself involved within nus, i wont learn these lessons and skills, from books, from e outside world when i start working, cos no one will ever bother to teach u as patiently and detailed as this... and lots of contacts too! so glad i'm given this so precious opportunity... and i'm enjoying myself... haha...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
about: my life
feeling so diaozzz-ed... its seems like it's so hard for jen, pc, me to meet up properly... we been postponing our girls night out since beginning of august... now end of oct liao... haizzz.... initially postpone postpone to this fri, then change to thur... then almost confirm to thur liao... then plan spoiled again... we are busy pple... haha... so much crash in schedules... e battle of sp vz nus... haha... but at least i meet jen quite often in sch...
hmmm just completed reading an article for my HR module on 'emotions and gender'...
this working world so unfair... treat men better than women...
tears are related to women's emotions...
physical and vocal aggregation are related to men's emotions...
but in e workplace, generally, we accept pple screaming and confronting each other and not caring of other's feelings in meetings yet, not accepting a simple drop of tear, keeping one's disagreement to oneself just in case to hurt someone else and putting a front...
tears seen as irrational and disruptive... men's expression are more factual and objective...
both are reflections of emotions (maybe even for e same situation)...
so much for wanting an equality of gender roles in the 21st century workforce...
women are being marginalised!
moreover, so much for saying that will an open and flexible view of emotions expression, this will improve a team's teamwork and efficiency... despite so, pple are still performing emotional labour (as in display emotions they other expect u to)... its such a contridiction...
ok enough of my readings.. anyway what i said, abt women's marginalised and being a contridicted... i agreed with it... and its taken out of e readings.. means its has lots of truth to not only a certain extent, but to many many extent... am i exaggerating?
*appreciating U*
*despite the times i doubt, i get upset, i just air my views and emotions w/o thinking twice*
*in this case, i dun perform emotional labour*
*and i know, u rarely rarely disappoint me*
=)
Monday, October 24, 2005
about: my life
God is with us every moment of our lives...
He is always there in every situation we are faced with
He is always there with every decision we make...
at some particular moment, when it seem as if y doesnt wat u want happen... y does the world go against u... y are things so unfair... situations happen that u just cant understand how... u chose to doubt God... u qn God... u wonder hard y are all these happening to me... y cant things be e way u want it to be...
then few moments later... maybe days.. maybe weeks, month, year... or maybe never... u start to see a bigger picture... u start to understand how everything tat u went through is making more sense now... one things lead to another... what u want, does not necessarily mean tat its best for u... somethings are just beyond a human's comprehension and expectation...
at the end of e day, u know tat everything in life... even the smallest, most insignificant thing is what God has prepared for u... to have... to do... its all according to Him way... so dun try to play God...
when i mean u... actually i'm refering to myself... and what i observe from others...
from the book of RUTH, i learn not to aim for earth things/ideas... but think long term and look towards God... easier said than done, i know... but shall make tat effort...
i want to be like Ruth... and it seems as if some parts of my life tat i'm going thr now, seems rather similar...
i want to give thanks to God for every little things that i experience...
thankful that at least i'm not with any illness... i got a wonder family, friends, school... i dun need to worry abt shelter, education, money, safety... i dun need to fight for my life... i get to enjoy my life the way it is... i am living in modern beautiful Singapore...
and from my new creation church service i went for yesterday... Believing in myself... Its all in the mind... haha... its so funny how tat prof can apply what he heard of in surmon while shopping... the situation goes like this, but actually hard to get it unless u heard e whole surmon... but oh well, e situation goes like this...
walking into citilink 'flash & splash'... he wanting to buy a 'funky' shirt... i got a few for him to try... this skinny guy, want to wear large size... i tell him tat he dun have a broad enough shoulder... then to my surprise he exclaimed! "i DO have a broad shoulder. i just know i have it!" wahaha... so do u call that self-deception or believe in self of wat u want? so funny!
about: my life
i'm having a very lame mass chat with mel, who is just sitting next to me... robbie and guo an who are in central library... so funny lar... whaha... i'm just sianed... slepy too... haha...
mel's laptop currently play: Corrine May "Save Me"
haha...
oh ya... jingfen is here too... and just looking at philo essay makes me go a big "HUH" and to think i almost took this module... haha...
yesterday... yesterday... yesterday... was a good day... well only mitchell will truely understand what i mean though... haha...
online last night i was, rather emotional i was...
looking forward i am... haha...
now mel laptop play: from Shrek, "Accidentally In Love"...
woohoo! i love this song... i love e memories it brings...
"are we there yet?"
a few moment later " Are we there yet?"
another few moment again "are we there yet"... haha...
then prof will just ignore me... of course with a "trying not to smile face" haha...
that was especially when shrek 2 was on...
and me being the irriating donkey... haha...
those were the days in sec sch when shrek 1 was in e movies...
Saturday, October 22, 2005
about: my life
lets see, what have i been busy with... hmmm too many to list down... essays essays more essays... readings readings more readings... thousand... pages... citation... plagarism...
wed to fri night, been travelling all e way from e west to e east and back again... but it was worth while... went to church for Pastor Benny Ho "seminar" on the study of the Bible Book of RUTH... titled "Faith to Fullness"... wow! just imaged the number of times he mentioned the word 'Faith', no matter how i tired i am, dozing off, i'll never be able to... wahah... but despite me being os tired, i stayed awake listening hard... wahaha... somehow its just by the strength of God... =)
yesterday had my dinner and supper with dad, mum, u.henry, a. ching pyne, weelong and bangshi... had frog leg porriage, oyster egg, beef hor fen, you tiao, bean curb... then followed by durian... and roasted chestnut... at geyland... wow! best meal i had for the week... haha...
i dunno wat else to say now, but....
i want to go play!
i want to go shopping!
i want to go relax relax!
Monday, October 17, 2005
about: my life
let me share with you the "highness" i got from last night, or rather early this morning...
the whole story goes like this:
on a rainy sunday, perfect timing to sleep, i dragged myself to depart from mitchell after church to go meet my HR peers to do our project, which dues on fri! arh...
the initially "i dunno how to do" me went...
discuss discuss, from a total blank sheet of paper, slowly more words appeared on it...
spilted e job, then the group departed...
meet parents for shopping... but i didnt buy anything... my mind was with my project... haha... wow! rare that faith doesnt want to shop... just not in e mood lor... haha
headed home, complained a bit to the self-proclaim prof... haha... watched my apprentice... got some inputs from the prof... almost half e time was tokking rubbish though... considering tat this guy havent actually used his brains much in the last 11months since As... not a bad achieve on his part... wait, does he even have a brain? wahaha...
i started my smoking session at 12midnight... of course doing other things too... like surfing my daily intake of internet and chatting....
but when one by one pple going offline...
left robbie and me... both writing essays...
i just keep writing crapping and smoking my way through...
tada at 3am in e morning... 1200 words i got... great achievements...
by then i was super "high" liao... awake too... wanted to continue, but i had to force myself to stop... number 1, cause my word limiti is 800... number 2, i have lect at 10am, and still need to travel down to nus from home...
so i went to slp... happily but saddly too...
its been such an exciting time... different from usual...
to think tat i used to drag writing a simple GP essays in jc... not to say a 200plus word composition in sec school...
in uni, they like pages and pages, thousands and thousands so much...
but i think i'm coming to realise, infact, its the word limit tat is limiting me to expression my thoughts and knowledge... if i really wan to do it well... not like i have much of them... wahaha...
the difficult part is to start writing... once u start, u cant stop... wahaha...
its all in e mind...
e intertia for me to start... e bad feelings and huge amount of reluctancy i get when faced with words...
not to mention readings...
ac days, gp package...
now is like, every week, there is a new gp package for me...
tat's life in arts...
haha...
but e comforting part is, being here, forces me to do something tat i been dragging to do all my life...
i'll never know, in a few mths, maybe i start loving writing n reading... and make it part of me... wahaha...
ok, so now i;m in science library... waiting for tutorial...
in e meant time, editing of my essay, continuation from a few hours ago... haha...
*a quite long entry... oh no! is wat i'm predicting myself to be in mths going to be so true... i'm writing! its instant! wahaha*
Saturday, October 15, 2005
about: my life
a new blog skin!!!
but i still like my previous blogskin as much... haha...
just decided for a change...
Friday, October 14, 2005
about: my life
yesterday, with my NM group mates, we went to singapore association for the deaf (SADeaf) for an interview... got to know so much more about the deaf community... it seems like e stuff we talked abt to this lady called ms judy lim, deputy director, are rather unrelated to our project, but yet, we had so much fun... interesting facts... a little of an eye opener, to me at least...
then headed to mum's office... wow! i'm so big shot, the GM recognised me before i even saw him, even escoted me into mum's office... wow! honoured i am... ok, i'm talkking big only... haha...
today, e usual... helped jen n her grp mates with their data collection project... 1-2pm, they all had to go for their tutorial, so i helped them lor... sit into law library... from the glass window, record the timings whenever shutter bus A1 and B arrives... interesting...
recently, it seems as in sitaution has been playing some tricks on us... SAF... haizzz... i shall not eleborate on it... just in case, i get sued for blogger about... haha...
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
about: my life
i'm typing with one hand now... my other hand is dirty... yea! snacking in the library... haha
watched cinderalla man... i looked around, everyone busy at work, but here i am enjoying movie... haha... and did u know that there is lilo and stitch 2? its playing now... haha robbie's laptop full of priated dl stuff... wahaha...
this morning, robbie, mei, me were crazy... had mac breakfast before our 8am lecture... its early enough yet we met earlier... i walked all e way from pgp to lt11... shutter bus doesnt operate so early mah... haha... i called mac 24/7 delivary at 1am to order our breakfast... haha... i must say, they have good service... haha... i'll call again... =p
so started my wednesday well well...
nm lect abt video gaming... i wanna go arcade!!!
southeast asia lect... finally lect abt sth i know wats going on... "economic development of sea" wahaha... its like applying wat i learn into real context... guoan n me were like yea, finally we see some light... haha...
Monday, October 10, 2005
about: my life
just some random though:
to see if an undergraduate is from NUS or NTU... is to notice if they're complaining about "having mid terms" or "having quizzes".... haha... got it? yea!
well i'm not sure of SMU though... haha...
when a person ask another person for opinion and comments on something... e person isnt exactly asking e other to choice for him/her, rather just need a confirmation that his/her choice is the right one... how true is tat?
y is it that some people can tolerate all kind of "non-sense" from certain people and continue to be so nice... however get really irriated over e smallest thing from other people and start being mad at each other? biasedness?
and y is it that u get angry with some certain people that u care so much so much easier than to some people that u hardly care about?
"chris, you're fired!"
isnt guy suppose to be the "stronger", less emotional gender? then y is it, when donald trump said that, tat guy teared aka cried? when i havent seen a women done tat on apprentice b4? hmmm... what does this say? moreover that guy known to be very violent and vulgar... wow! does it also mean, e tougher u seen to be like, e more likely u'll breakdown when u really do?
the alphebet on your NRIC number isnt there for nth, isnt there randomly... it has to do with Coding... just a simple alphebet has lots of meaning and can tell much...
Thursday, October 06, 2005
about: my life
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thur, which is today, had another fruitful 1hour of S@S Evens meeting...
and i'm having fun!
i'm learning a lot!
enthu about it!
looking forward
yea!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
about: my life
today started off... in a rush! hurry hurry hurry pack all my many stuff then off to nus!
econs lect... hmmm macro... i got to buck up! i'm rather weak with this as compared to micro...
maths lect abt Codings... all the 1s, 0s... and i was so sleepy, i slpt, wake up listen, doze off, wake up, doze off, wake up... but i still more or less followed e lect...
maths tutorial... so tired again... i keep dozing off... trying hard, drinking water, to keep myself awake...
now! y am i extremely sleepy today? hmmm
then met robbie! retail therpy! yea! so mel n me had something up our sleeves... but so glad e surprise was indeed a surprise... i'm so happy... to be abt to see my dear friend so happy on his 21st birthday...
its e little things tat one do, tat will make a difference in others life... a significant difference for e better... isnt this what life is abt? isnt it wat friends are for... isnt it just so wonderful??? i cant help but smile while typing this... haha... after a marche dinner treat from robbie... thanks dude... we watched 'corpse bride'... its so cool lar... so many puns! so many underline meanings... so cool... a little disgusting n scarey too...
Monday, October 03, 2005
about: my life
tml is a better day... no no!!! shld i say today... its 1am monday morning liao... haha... wat am i still doing online when i'm quite tired... feeling vexed! juz feeling like screaming! arhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but well, hope things goes on well later... =)
had a wonderful weekend, as usual...
hungry ghost was in town... tat's me! i practically had a feast e whole weekend... to make up for all the lack of decents meals during e weekdays...
so stressed till my hair all dropped! haha... *pun intended*
Saturday, October 01, 2005
about: my life
Happy Children's Day to Myself!
yea!
being a child, its in the mind/heart!
yea!
i'm quite luan over something... i dunno how to respond to it, dunno how to deal with it... juz dunno...
well my life full of dunnos... wahaha... or rather i'm juz lazy to think of solutions... like what 'some people' will say "what's new?" haha...