Saturday, July 31, 2004
about: my life
quote of the day...
"Its a amzing how you can speak right through my heart"
dunno why but this sentence of a song juz suddenly struck me juz now while doing my maths....
hmmm e sound of fireworks, from e ndp preview... juz brought back many memories.... memories tat's so sweet, yet will juz ask tears to my eyes now....orch!
the week been a bz one... its 2 weeks to prelims... so cant afford to play so much...
i watched Mean Girls on Mon though... cool show i must say...
Today went to Orchard... carried this heavy bag of stuff for my friend.. all e way.... n i had to wait for 3 hrs? my level of patience has gone up through e yr... not bad ah... well, till now, i dun even remember getting a "thanks".... or did my memory fail me tat i cant remember... possible though, knowing how stonny i was and still is today.... e stuff in e bag cost 25 bucks... i gave it for free... but i did it on my own accord.. worth it i guess... i m broke lar.. there's still so much i wanna buy, so much i need to buy...
my mind in a mess now, dun even know wat i tokking abt.... juz crapping...
yesterday was Peggy bday.... Supper was great... she's finally 18, no need use fake ic go clubbinh liao... but at this time of e yr, i doubt she will go lar...
Shao, if ya reading this, sorry for e disappointment... not in e mood to update my rubbish tok on LOVE....
Jason... enough enough.... haiyo....
romantic Love.... its sth i m trying so hard to fight against now....
i seriously need to put lots more of Love n Care into my studies...
Sunday, July 25, 2004
about: my life
Have you ever been in love?
It's Weird, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you, dominate you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one "stupid" person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your "stupid" life... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. but do i hate love? Still NO.
SomeTimes it's hard to find someone that fulfils the criterias u have set as your bf. The more u hope, the more disappointed u will be.. Noone is perfect..
REad John Harris' book on "When a girl Meet a Guy" and "I kissEd daTiNg gOOdbye".
Both books have Christian content.. Teach how to lead a God glorifying life and maintain a relationship that is God glorifying. I need to learn how to stay focused on God and love my family and myself more before I love someone of an oppo sex.
Not that I don't love myself and my family and friends now, but is it sufficient?
Believe that God has His own plans, wait & accept whatever purpose he had made you for is the best way..
No point forcing, thinking about the past, thinking "If only this, If only that..." No point making yourself hurt time and time again... but surely all these are easier said than done... Emotions are something hard to control... many things done and said are done at impulse... a while later, when you calm down and think back, you wonder, why did u react that way, why this why that... No point regretting, but just have to move on... Sometimes u know well enough, things will never be the same again, yet you still hope for something to happen... knowing very well the consequences... It's weird how that "stupid" person can just make you day, make you seem like the happiest person on earth for that moment, and another time make you seem like the end of the world, nothing seem to be on your side... A simple sms from that "stupid" person can easily put a big smile on your face, yet another time, a simple, innocent sms can change your mood drastically, even add tears to your eyes... All these happen, even without you knowing why its happening and what to do next... its weird right? Its easy or rather do-able to get angry, to ignore or even hate someone, yet its almost impossible to do it on that "stupid" someone...
On a happier note, Love is something created by God for a good cost, be it Love between self, peers, family, opps sex, strangers, enemies... He sometimes makes Loving hurtful, painful, so that we learnt to treasure whatever is to come more... For, we humans, the most effective way, is to learnt from our own past experience. We tend to value the things we lost before more.
1 Corinthians 13:4 says " Love is patient, love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perserveres. Love never fails"
We are all sinners, most of us havent been loving others the way we should be. Its a challanging task, isnt it?
Quite obviously, i didnt type the above whole "script" myself... i must be crazy if so...
got from a close friend...
i edited a little and added some stuff in,
so its up to You to figure out & keep be kept in suspense of what originated from me & what's not... haha... all for the fun of it...
And pls dont take it too seriously... its just some crap of ours & mine... haha
Sunday, July 18, 2004
about: my life
overall, a bad day today...
woke up early in e morning for BB enrolmet... yes, i know i m not from boys bridage, neither am i a boy to start with, but i grew up in BB...
i was e "official photographer", but wat to hack... i dun like taking photos for nuts... e only reason i agreed my dad to do it was... he called on my hp last nite, while i was eating, tokking to my friends, hands dirty, couldnt think proper, so i juz said "ok ok" to anything....
so ok, sunday early early morning came, i took my camera, walked ard trying to take photos... TRYING... but its quite dumb.... i counted, 6 other cameras ard, including my sis, dad.... its like... every year is e same thing in and out, same movement, same blue uniform, then y need so many photos.... u see ah, weddings, such a once in a life time occasion, grand, usually only have a photographer or maybe two.... get my point?
not to say, i had to walk up n down like some fool.... hmm i juz feel like one... cos i often hate it when e photographer of watever event move n move, block my view, so of course i wont want do it myself.... anyhow, i did my job, but only took e minimum... i MIA off and on, but doubt any1 even noticed lar....
had lunch at furamount hotel, opposite parkway.... food, ok lar... nth great.... boring...
i will say enrolment this yr is different.... as in e pple... errrr, my 1986 batch not ard liao...
wasnt feeling well, physically n psycologically i guess.....
in e mids of my boredom of a few hrs, i kept wanting to sms my friend... but i somehow didnt....
had some miscommunication between my tutor, mum and me...
arhhhhh, watever, i juz not in a good mood now..... but i should b fine soon... tat's juz me....
Saturday, July 17, 2004
about: my life
got woken up by felice today... so called to bid me farewell.... orhhhh she sweet of her... i m gonna miss her... felice left singapore, but vivian liang will b back tonight... co cool lar... one gone, another come... like e saying go, when a door closes, dun worry, another door will open 4 u.. something to tat effect lar.... haha....
its been a mth, since i when to COSi... time flies.... a mth gone and in a mth will b prelims... like wat Mrs Chan, my phy tutor, said, e one thing we should not be doing now is feeling discouraged... we should look forward...
yesterday on my way home with peggy, had our usual daily "on our journey home" conversation... on e topic of "LOVE"... haha... we were saying if i were to write wat we tokked abt here, sure kanna jack but lots of pple... haha...
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
about: my life
had a great day today.. somehow i juz so much energy, till now.. to think tat i slpt at 2am this morning... juz trying to complete gp compre... tat's 4plus hrs of slp... haha
sch was great.. not tat bad...
early first period, i juz started crapping in class... hope no one got irritated of me... hehe...
after school, headed all e way from e west 2 east to meet my friend to get some book... wow so thick lar... to think i had to carry 2 of them walking around... i ac student leh... how come so hardworking... haha....
meet up with mitchell, vivian, teresa, felice, sherrie... went to chinatown 4 a feast... i really mean a feast... 6 girls, a full table of food... we had stingray, sambal kang kong, sambal sotong, black pepper beef, cha gu tiao, satay, wan tan noodles, niong hiang... then 4 dessert, tang yuan, sesami, peanunt, almond paste, fruits, drinks... all e best food tat can b found at china town... wow, great man... had so much fun eating, chatting, laughing, suaning each other.. been a really long time since all of us actually catch up like this... great, juz wonderful... as we were walking ard, felice n i, started to sing OUR trademark song... "even if" by 2be3.... was a long time since i last heard this song man...
rained so heavily, 6 of us, under 3 umbralle, walkking in e rain, heavy rain, can b fun too.... "i'm singing in e rain"... hehe
now instead of feeling tired after a long, active day.... and with so little slp... i feel so fresh, recharged, so alive... all i can say is
"Be glad n rejoice for e LOrd our saviour reign"
thanks God for this batch of great friends i haf...
God really been blessing me... i wont know wat to do w/o U...
to every1 i met today, yesterday, e days to come...
thanks 4 being part of my life,
thanks 4 making my life a memoriable one
thanks 4 tolerating all my nonsense, all my whinning, all my nagging, all my watever, juz giving in to me (this pampered kid)... haha
thanks 4 sharing my joys n sorrows
thanks 4 hafing fun with me n play with me ( this mentally 7 yr old child) haha
*I MISS COSi so So SO much*
Sunday, July 11, 2004
about: my life
my sunday day started off quite bad, bothered by some stuff... but it became better as e day went by...now i m feeling not tat bad...
evening went to airport to welcome felice back to spore... haha... so funny lar... she was in transit then she called us... we were like... "we at home, cant make meet up today"... wow e tone of her voice juz changed lar... i guessed her heart dropped... from e time we hung up e phone, to e time we met face to face... we were feeling so guilty.. cos we lied to her... we committed a crime... haha.... but maybe such white lies r acceptable... (juz comforting myself) haha... after she collected her luggage, she saw us.... her face turned red and we juz started laughing laughing n hugging... owwww........ so glad to see her again... yuppies... haha
about: my life
Mac Big Mac any1?
"SUPER SIZE ME" (pg)... cool movie... its not really a movie, as in dun haf storyline, its more like those documentary u get to watch on CNA... wonder y they made it into a movie... as in, so unusual... but anyhow, it was worth it... well my seat was on e first row, so uncomfortable.. but also no choise... initally we went to LIDO then to ps, so we cant afford to b too fussy or else no movie to watch at all... haha
" Filmmaker Morgan Spurlock hit the road and interviewed experts in 20 U.S. cities, including Houston, the "Fattest City" in America. From Surgeon Generals to gym teachers, cooks to kids, lawmakers to legislators, these authorities shared their research, opinions and "gut feelings" on our ever-expanding girth.
During the journey, Spurlock also put his own body on the line, living on nothing but McDonald's for an entire month with three simple rules:
1) No options: he could only eat what was available over the counter (water included!)
2) No supersizing unless offered
3) No excuses: he had to eat every item on the menu at least once
It all adds up to a fat food bill, harrowing visits to the doctor, and compelling viewing for anyone who's ever wondered if man could live on fast food alone.
The film explores the horror of school lunch programs, declining health and physical education classes, food addictions and the extreme measures people take to lose weight and regain their health.
Super Size Me is a satirical jab in the stomach, overstuffed with fat and facts about the billion-dollar industry besieged by doctors, lawyers and nutritionists alike. "Would you like fries with that?" will never sound the same! "
this movie will sure make me think twice abt eating at fast food resturant again... scarey sia... as in e facts tat were revealed are juz unbelievable n shocking... haha
tml felice coming back from indonesia... yuppies...
Saturday, July 10, 2004
about: my life
What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla
i love "Finding Nemo"
previously i identified myself as Nemo n e other forgettful fish, watever his name is, as...
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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16? so old? i thot my mental age is younger leh.. tat's wat pple would say... anyway how accurate can all these test get... juz do 4 fun lar... haha
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
about: my life
"i believe there's a hero in every1 of us... even though we have to give up e things we love e most" - spiderman2
wow, how hard it is man... in tat case, i cant b a 'hero', anyway who can???
ok i've said my 2cents worth...
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
about: my life
i cycled in e rain today.. wow.. so fun man... haha... but painful ah, as in e rain drops... hehe... e faster e speed of my bike, e more e impact... phy phy... under dynamic rite? something abt e velocity hitting e surface... mu+mv=Mu+Mv... conservation of momentum... ok watever i dunno... maybe its time to go revise tat chapter again... haha.... hmmmm had a sandwich at Mac Cafe... nice leh... haha...
Monday, July 05, 2004
about: my life
PORTUGAL vs GREECE match is on NOW... going to half time soon...
well e only reason tat i m here, at home, able to type all these is for e sake of my mum... well its not tat she forced me, instead she did allow me to go out watch with my friends, but i know my mum well enough, unless i m home, she wont b able to slp well or feel at peace... i know i cant b selfish and only think of myself, so i chose to stay home... watch euro all alone... i cant help but feel a little sad 4 myself... not tat i regretting my choice, cos i know i done e right thing, but i juz feeling so sian so sian now...
first half, i juz stare at e tv black box.. not like i know wat going on.. as in, i dunno any particlar player or stuff... juz seeing 22 guys running after a relatively tiny ball... my friend say its bcos if e amount of money tat pple put on e BALL... so it caught me thinking... is this abt sports, or abt money... hmmmmm
well maybe i dun play soccer or sports myself, so i wont know how to appreciate such stuff... i dunno how to appreciate sports as a whole though...
hmmmm how come got no match 4 3rd, 4th placing huh?
my week been ok.. sch lor.. wat else.. coping well, as in manageable.. but motor got to increase constantly..
today church was youth sunday... wow i felt so proud to b a youth man... haha...
